I would wait for you for forever
if I thought that you wanted me to wait

question.

if you read this, please give me your thoughts - even if it's just a one word response. It's been on my mind tonight.

Is it selfish to allow your feelings to get hurt (by situational events)?

good times.

several reasons why this weekend was so fantastic:

a. I was in Clemson (you can't get much better than that)
b. I got to drive through the country
c. I got to share a bed with two of my best friends
d. I got to ride on a motorcycle for the first time ever
e. I got to ride on that motorcycle behind a pretty great guy
f. I got to go to NewSpring which pretty much rocks my world
g. I got to see an incredible football game
h. I got to have a LI with Bri...sort of.
i. I got to have really great phone conversations with 2 of my best friends (not ones i shared a bed with) on the drive back to Charleston
j. I got to have lunch w/ my mom and nephew on the way to Clemson
k. USC got waxed by Alabama :-)
l. I got to play touch football with some of my classmates
m. I saw brownies made in a frying pan
n. I saw some good friends I haven't gotten to talk to in a while (sleeve, stark, etc.)
o. I got to watch the game with my dad
p. Ancheaux's
q. I was in Clemson
r. I was in Clemson
s. I was in Clemson
t. I didn't have to be here studying....

Can't wait to get back there -

can you see the face in the moon?

in the car
with my feet on the dash
the world seems to fade into the distance.
the windows are down
and the wind sweeps the worries away.
no, not the wind...
it was hands....hands took them....held them safe...
carried them.
sitting....driving....
feet on the dash
being carried away.
by hands.
by touch.
words speak volumes
often silence is even louder.
sometimes tears fall...
but as long as there is a face in the moon
there will always be hands to carry your worries away.

How great is this? Thanks Bri, for sharing.

"Don't
Surrender
Your lonliness so quickly.
Let it cut more
Deep.

Let it ferment and season you
As few human
Or even divine ingredients can.

Something missing in my heart tonight
Has made my eyes so soft,
My voice so
Tender,

My need of God
Absolutely
Clear."

-Hafiz

a battleground?

tonight i've been thinking about the heart. i have heard it said that the heart has reasons that reason cannot know, and if you have ever experienced love - you can vouch with me that this statement is true. the heart is unexplainable and immeasurable, for sure, but tonight for some reason thoughts of the heart being a battleground have been in the forefront of my mind. in my almost 22 years of life, i have found nothing more beautiful than the human heart - perhaps because of it's simplistic complexities, but also becuase of the constant battle that is going on inside the heart, for the heart, in spite of the heart, etc. i wish i could say more of these thoughts right now, but it is late and i am sleepy and i'm afraid this post will become incoherant. if you have any thoughts - feel free to share 'em - I'd love to hear. perhaps i will share more later...for now though, i'm out.
keep fighting the beautiful fight.

Ficticious Calamities

suddenly shakin' on the inside
it's hard to slow it down
crazy quivering
I can feel it
Charging at my everything.
It's real.
The cause is not.
Ficticious calamities...that's all they are.
Subsiding under the weight of your wings...
Subsiding under the weight of Your wings.

not much of anything..."y'all"

I think I haven't written in awhile due to the fact that I can't even come close to knowing where to begin. There is so much to say, and so much to not say all at the same time. I don't think an internet blog is the place to put all your emotions, or heart necessarily -- some of that is kept for myself...and one or two others who I am able to pour my heart out to, and be honest and real with. So yea, guess that's a lot of the reason I haven't made a real post lately.

Break is over - it's back to the real world grind now. it was nice to have some time off, that's for sure. I kinda wish it didn't have to end just yet....

I wish I was really great with words like my friend Bri. But, words aren't coming to me right now, and I have nothing profound to say, so I'm gonna close. Hope y'all are doing well (and when I say "y'all" I mean anyone who ever reads this...which I'm pretty sure is no one, but I use the term anyway because I'm a southerner).

Peace.

a beggar

I wish.


I need.


please....

Goodmorning.

Thismorning I gained a renewed appreciation for the following things that have gotten lost this summer:

-having time to enjoy your breakfast on the porch - man, that makes a morning 10 times better

-the fall season. it was actually "crisp" (i love that word) outside thismorning, and felt absolutely wonderful - bring on the season change.

-being able to enjoy and appreciate the outside --- i need to go camping, and hangout in the woods...soon.

-being able to sit and relax (in my sweatpants) and read and have nothing imminent weighing on my mind or rushing me.